Bismillahirrahmanirraheem!
KEEP DOING AND KEEP GETTING:
Man should never lose hope and should have good opinion about Allah SWT. Allah SWT treats His slave as per his opinion about Him SWT. Yes Allah SWT is very Merciful and Generous but He SWT wants to see the quest in you and how much you are putting the efforts. Keep doing whatever you can and then Allah SWT will treat you by His SWT grace. So keep doing without losing hope. You will fall but stand up, you will fall but stand up and keep doing. Don’t give up. Allah SWT won’t criticize or ignore someone’s hard work and quest. There is a saying, “Keep doing and keep getting”. He SWT will never disappoint you. Strange is the court of Allah SWT. A person can do as many sins he wants but when he turns to Him SWT, everything changes upside down in just one minute. The condition is one should turn to Him SWT with khuloos (sincerity). He SWT is such a Generous Lord. So keep doing. Yeah we accept we are deficient, imperfect and aamaal are not good but keep doing. Do not give up. Let there be just this quest in you that you should acquire the pleasure of Allah SWT. “I want to lead a life pleasing to You SWT. I want to live for You and die for You”. Let this be the true passion in you. So do it as much as you can and stick to it. inshaaAllah Allah SWT will grant you the goal.
BE A CRITIC AND BE HUMBLE:
Just turn to Him SWT will sincerity and resolution. If a person never mentioned the name of Allah SWT and spent his entire life only in sins, even for him the doors of Allah’s mercy are open. Whatever is difficult for the slave, it is very easy for Allah SWT. So how can one lose hope in Allah SWT? When Allah’s Mercy shows up then all the dirt of the life gets cleansed but for that quest is the condition. There is no doubt when Allah’s mercy turns to us the dirt of sins of our entire life gets cleansed off but for that turning of Allah’s mercy we should have the true quest. O Allah! I want to become Your’s and be Your’s. That’s it. It is within the ability of human to bring this quest and Allah SWT has made him responsible for that. So do what is within your ability. Hazrat Gangohi (RA) says that when a person works hard on himself with true quest that he become Allah’s throughout his life and feels that he didn’t achieve anything, then know that he has achieved everything. There are no major sins in his life, no persistence in minor sins and when he sees his good deeds, he finds it defective but has a true quest, then inshaaAllah he will achieve everything. Allah SWT has granted Hazrat Gangohi (RA) a very high status among akaabir (the pious elders) and he was called as the faqih-an-nafs. (Faqih an-Nafs” is among the terminology used by the fuqaha [jurists]. It refers to that person, who after long engagement with the science of fiqh, is granted by Allah Almighty a natural disposition with which one is able to come to correct conclusions [in matters of fiqh] without referring to books.)
DO NOT GIVE UP:
Hazrat Gangohi (RA) was the eldest of the akaabir. It was his (RA) saying that if a person feels he did not achieve anything even after the hard work throughout his entire life, then he has achieve everything. Even after the status of a person is established but he still sees himself worthless after leaving not a single stone unturned to achieve his goal, it is this humility that Allah SWT likes in a person. To consider oneself worthless in every moment of his life is humility and this is slavery. So keep doing the job be it perfect or imperfect and inshaaAllah imperfection will turn one day into perfection. A person started learning to write and he couldn’t write the letter “jeem” properly and seeing that he became frustrated that he couldn’t write it correctly. It will be said to this person not to aim for utmost perfection in the beginning itself but keep writing and he will start writing “jeem” properly over a period of time. Initially one may not be attached to a work but keep doing it whatever be the case.
Whenever you get the tawfeeq, do it. Don’t think, “O yesterday I didn’t do and what is the use of doing it today”. You can do things with utmost care but if one day gets missed, do not worry. You can do it again. If you say, “I do for two days, then it gets missed. I again do it for a day or two but gets missed again.” Whatever be the case still do it. Missing for few days is better than leaving it continuously or permanently. So keep doing it. If you did a mistake, repent and start again. One may not have natural association with work but have perseverance and that will do the job. You have the concern for your reformation and you have perseverance and quest to achieve Allah’s pleasure, then do it even if you feel lazy sometimes. So keep doing it and inshaaAllah you will see its barakah all by yourself. Let Allah SWT grant us all the tawfeeq for it.
Ameen!